No More!
It is mind-blowing how in four days – after I’d posted my last blog, from my lover, expressing undying love – everything can change.
On the 22 August, my last words to my lover…
I think it would be best if we do not communicate until something changes in your life if it ever will.
I don’t know.
I don’t know how to feel.
But I am going to do everything to get myself back, in time.
It is all torture.
I want it to end.
This is the only way.
I cannot be there for you if you cannot be there for me.
I almost have nothing left, and I need to get it back.
I read in my journal last night…
29th January… I cannot take much more of this distance. I want and need us to be together…
Almost 7 months later and nothing has changed. Absolutely nothing.
The more has reached its limit.
I kept warning you.
So, this can’t be a surprise.
Just more agony and frustration because there is absolutely nothing you can do. Which I disagree with and that was the final straw for me.
I’d suggested many times to come over and be with you during this time. This is what I needed. But you rejected me, blaming something – the stress you’re going through or whatever.
It was always when it suited you to visit me. But know that there always comes a time… A time when enough is enough.
No more.
What else?