No More!

It is mind-blowing how in four days – after I’d posted my last blog, from my lover, expressing undying love – everything can change.

 

On the 22 August, my last words to my lover…

 

 

I think it would be best if we do not communicate until something changes in your life if it ever will.

 

I don’t know.

 

I don’t know how to feel.

 

But I am going to do everything to get myself back, in time.

 

It is all torture.

 

I want it to end.

 

This is the only way.

 

I cannot be there for you if you cannot be there for me.

 

I almost have nothing left, and I need to get it back.

 

I read in my journal last night…

 

 

29th January… I cannot take much more of this distance. I want and need us to be together…

 

 

Almost 7 months later and nothing has changed. Absolutely nothing.

 

The more has reached its limit.

 

I kept warning you.

 

So, this can’t be a surprise.

 

Just more agony and frustration because there is absolutely nothing you can do. Which I disagree with and that was the final straw for me.

 

I’d suggested many times to come over and be with you during this time. This is what I needed. But you rejected me, blaming something – the stress you’re going through or whatever.

It was always when it suited you to visit me. But know that there always comes a time… A time when enough is enough.

 

No more.

 

What else?